somebody told me 2 write some notes n post it here....so dat it'll be my first path 2 be a writer sooner or later.... after 24 years i spend time observe people, experience those happy and hard moments, sharing a various kind of mine n others probs....holding all d tittle a woman shud have, a daughter, a sister, da' eldest daughter, a teenager, a student, a BFF, a teacher, a counselor, a wife and a career mother eventually i supposed 2 be in d group of adult... it's early but it was written up there... so here i am... wanna share a lot of thing about love story, marrriage life, a challenge of being mother, a survival, and lots of unpredictable things u shud never imagine it gonna happen in ur life.... where shud i start? i still dunno but as my concern so much frens out there now are looking forward 4 their mr and mrs right... for their husband n wife... good n wish u all the best luck in order 2 step on a new phase in human life circle....some of u maybe late, some of u might be earlier... some of u may follow on the flow, some of u may jump forward... some of u may juz wait like nothing shud be rush for... and may be some of u still in solving their puzzle... 4 me all things are puzzle.. life is a puzzle, love is a puzzle, as well as human.... every piece of puzzle has their own role 2 complete d whole...u cant simply put it here n there bcos it'll only suit its own place... some people got d easy one so everything shud be easy 2 settle, some people got d so so one and some people got a very tough one... for the instance, my life puzzle... who will i marry 2? my boyfriend or the stranger one i juz know 4 a couple of days? can i determine my own destiny? of cos not... bcos like i said earlier, it was written, d man in my life is d stranger i never imagine he was.. d characteristic dat i never list on my heart... but who knows me better? Allah is it? i try 2 believe it but i start 2 confuse....... why? 2 be continued..... chapter 2 talk about love never ends, talk about life never easy...trust me... u try make fun 2 ur life then everything gonna be worse...u can say ur life is happy...sufficient money, good job, high position, beautiful wife but ur wife cannot pregnant...n u spend a lot on it.... hundred thousand plus u spend 4 IVF n so on... but u never think y God still hold it on 4 u? bcos He think u r not ready 2 be parents... but u keep on look at d only one hole in ur ife...then u'll be suffer... am i rite? if u dunno how 2 be grateful then ur life get into trouble... there r such a lot of thing can be settle juz becos u practise this GRATEFUL attitude.... trust me wen i go shopping i spend a lot of money 4 unnecessary things... i cant buy a new fashion handbag ( in d meanwhile i got problem where 2 place all my bags)... so i start 2 think who n where can i get d money from... call my mom n tell her lies 2 buy books? cheat my husband dat my old bag is worn out or borrow d money from my friend? have u ever seen a university student go here and there juz bring a simple plastic bag or paper bag? 4 years she keeps on wearing the same bag n she never spell out a word about buying a new bag.... is she is so grateful 4 wut she has? hmmm.... if i can be like her, i am not too much 2 say dat now i am a millionaire... i loss so much juz becos i lack practise d GRATEFUL ATTITUDE>...... dat is d biggest mistake i do in my life about planning my financial and i still cant atone d mstake until now.... 2 be continued... chapter 3 now, almost all of my friends are packing their last luggage 2 step out d university life... all i can say they got such a weird feeling on it... some of them may be so happy 2 leave d chapter STUDENT n turn on a new leaf in their life book... so can i ask u wut's ur next chapter is? WIFE? WORKER? LOTUS EATER? or u still dunno yet wut will happen after this? or u still on doubt 2 leave it bcos u got so much memories n unfinish things in dat chapter... i told u guys, sincerely wen i step out from UPM d last day i went out 4 LMPK, i set up my mind already, i'm free now, i crave a colourful future where i can support my own life as well as i can test my power in working field... i thot dat my curse is over.... but wen i look back 4 years ago, wen v were still young, we dunno how 2 key in d subject, we hard 2 find our own class, we lost in d faculty, entered wrong class, misunderstood so much things, d moment we spend 2gether: sharing our love story, share d same bed and bathroom, cut our hair and owh i really feel sad (teary eyes @~@) i still can remember my early first semester, i pregnant 4 my second baby n during d orientation week i skip so many activities n i got d privelege 2 rest like a queen...ha3 some of u on dat time still dunno me... one time wen i was sitting in d musalla, i gotta know H... she's not feeling well on dat time, she got fever n cough with her bunch of medicine from PKU... ha3 dat's time so funny, we started 2 know each other, changing our love story and we thot dat we'd d chemistry 2 become best friend...and one thing i cant forget d rest of my life is wen we got into so much TROUBLE.. and we involved in wut we so called S_____L...uncountable s____... ha3 hi3 hu3.... i cant remember all their name but i'm sure none of u (my BFFs) will forget it...with my hard 2 describe marriage life i'm sure all of u will suprised why i cant survive until now..isnt it? why i still wait 4 my husband n why i decide 2 change myself instead of change his attitude on me...because i got undivided support from u guys... u turn me from nothing to something... 2 b continued chapter 4 lonely planet marriage is a lonely planet 4 me. no fun at all...i give my best but never get something back 2 me.. happy marriage always give n take...but my marriage only teach me how 2 give......it sounds unfair but i'd face it almost 6 years... here is a love poem 4 my beloved hubby... dear hubby, we married almost 6 years i dunno wen i love u i always know how 2 hate u u cause me a lot of trouble n turn my life more miserable hundred times a day i think of killing u but y until now u still alive? think of u is my pain being nice 2 me cause u migrain all my hard time ur always unseen my future with u can never be foreseen. wen i ask something, u said it too much wen u ask me, wah u want it so fast am i too sweet 2 chew like candy? many times i feel like u eat me alive.... but i start 2 realize, i got no future without u, my nite is so lonely wen u r not around, i care 4 u juz becoz i love u it's too much u will nvr imagine i know u'll nvr have time 2 shop wif me i know ur damn hot temper i know u'll lost conscious easily wen u mad at me i know u'll nvr say u love me i know u'll nvr call me darling in ur entire life but i dun care at all five years u treat me like dat i'd immune already.... 2 be continued chapter 5 Dilemma What is this feeling I have? I seem to love you but other times I seem to loathe you .. Sometimes i thot I can't be without you Or maybe just without anyone.... I think about you all the time. But i dunno why do I have this feeling?  I long for your voice and I would die to hear your laugh But is this love or merely lust? hehehe i dun hv idea wut i am saying.... help!!!!! it was my weakness...by time u broke down my wall, i'd built it so strong, never think it will fall....i try hard 2 fight these feelings cos i know it's not belong 2 me.... i'm so scared of wut i feel.. behind my wall i was crying inside, burried all the emotions i had... my wall fell down, these feelings i cant help... my wall crumbled from my weakness and i know it was so wrong.. i dunno how 2 fix it again...

Thai Unique Foods

I love Thai foods especially Tom Yam, Som Tam, Mee Celup and bla bla... Here I want to share some photos about Thai food I had ordered when I visit Thailand. 

Last two weeks I visit Thai Food Festival at Golok Thailand. 

 I went to Hatyai last time and I bought this fried prawn. The price vary depends on the prawn size.. 

If you go to Hatyai you will see the stalls sell this kind of food along the road alley. It starts from 5 pm until midnight.

 Air Buah Bidara (Bidara Juice) from preserved fruit

 Crunchy crab. It tastes sweet and spicy. I like to eat this and I only find it in Hatyai. 

 Deep Fried Chicken with Mix Herbs

Open the table

Tom Yam Seafood in a hot pot really delicious. I love Tom Yam.

Fried Belangkas (King Crab) 

Multi Flavor Lemang 

Lemang Thai Version

 Deep Fried Minced Catfish

Under the fish, it has papaya salad. How to eat this? You must mix them together then you will get the real Thai food taste. Sweet, sour, crunchy and spicy all in a dish.

Thai Squid Salad (Very Spicy)

My Dream Bedroom Part 2

My Dream Bedroom Part 2

Eventually, I found my princess dressing table at second-hand goods shop at a very reasonable price and still in  a good condition (after some touch up)... The owner of the shop said he will increase the price if I want him to fix some minor broken part..but I refused and I accept lower price after negotiation...

Not as good as a new one but I fully satisfied with the outcome. I painted it myself and placed it against my princess bedroom.. I don't like my makeup things spoil the look of my princess dressing table.. So I decided  to put all the things in the drawer.

This is my mom's old wardrobe..I painted it together with my dressing table. I'm not thinking of buying any new wardrobe because as I said earlier this is not my real room. Later my own room will have a built in wardrobe as below (my dream built in wardrobe).....

Wowww totally a big dream... Only me can dream such huge wardrobe (not include the candlelier but also can la).. it's so expensive as its price counts per square feet plus if I want it made from nyatoh wood..

After some touch, my wardrobe and dressing table become like this.... and I feel good for now.. My wishes always change and I just follow on the flow. As for now let it remains like this.

My fluffy carpet really soft and nice color... I like carpets because my feet is so sensitive with the cold especially when I turn on the aircond. I bought the carpet the next day after I bought my dressing table. Really worth it to perform solat on this carpet... Hehe... That black stool came together with my mini L-shape sofa..

The original L-shape sofa came with the stool. I use this sofa to watch TV at my room, surfing internet, updating my blog (too recent) or karaoke my favourite songs. The coffee table I wrapped with animal print cloth and plastic to maximize its use as my daily organizer. Like an office desk isn't it?

Again I modified my sofa with my large cushions. It's softer and more comfortable...  My room is my right... This sofa I didn't plan to buy it but when I shopped at Tesco, my eyes bumped into it and I fall in love. Always the same dramatic story of my life. I swear it's so true.

Samsung Inverter is my big investment for this room because I can't stand to live in a hot room. Plus I spend most of my free time at my room. I need a cool and fresh air day and night. There it is I have two type of fragrances for my room lavender and citrus. I use it according my mood. My Hello Kitty alarm clock is so cute to be used so I just keep it nicely there.

The cutest thing I bought for myself is 'I Love Shoes Fun Money Box'. It's look like a bootie right? Later I want to buy more cute things for myself because I started to realize that buying such thing is a good therapy for your soul.. Muahaha (the devil laugh)... Below is my Hello Kitty alarm clock. I love both of them..

My Hello Kitty alarm clock has a red ribbon on its head.. Hello Kitty is a kitten and I also have kittens in my house. I love them. Plus it has light and produce cute sound every time it wakes you up from your sweet dreams... Quite over description. Isn't it?

The image is dark but I really love the stand lamp. I bought many different bulbs for different mood and settings.. I have red, blue, green, and yellow bulb.. I consider all simple things because complete the simple will make things better I think. As you can see I enjoyed karaoke in my own room especially when it powered by VIERA LCD.. My lappy sometimes I connect to my VIERA for a better view. I love gadgets sometimes and only if I know how to operate them.

My beloved aunt make the lovely curtain for me. I bought the cloth and told her how my dream curtain is and she finished it exactly like I want. The curtain rods I bought at Tesco. I prefer double layer curtain not only to make my room look nice but also to make sure my rooms not so hot and bright during daylight.

All my favourite things in a picture. Long life love.. Here all the love gather everyday.. Day and night.. My family members love to spend time in this room to watch movie because my VIERA can support their external hardisks, pendrive, SD card, Wi-Fi and I have DVD player in my room. Only in my room ok.

Do you remember my roses from my last entry? Now the roses take place on my console table. I added small cushions on the chairs just to add color for the plain chairs...

This colorful bed sheet is a complimentary from Panasonic. I have so many bed sheets and I love all of them.  Sometimes I am so confused which one I want to use. At last I mix and match it. My room is my right again.

I think this is my last pic for my dream bedroom entry for now. My entire bedroom looks like this. Tadaaa. My long life love is all here.

Dream Girl Bedroom

My Beloved Princess Bedroom

Even I fully-hearted white base, curtain, bedsheets and furniture, but still I cant resist purple and pink cute things..... There it goes, I spend a lot of money for the bed. What's really in mind when buying this? Italian style but at last.. hmmpphh all you can see is a 'rojak' style... I mix-match everything....

Actually, I am not so into any bear.... Teddy bear, fluffy stuff and any doll.... The graduation bear on the side  table is a gift on my graduation day... That's only the suitable place to put it I think... The white folded chair I bought separately with side table and console table.... I fall in love when I first time see it.....So simple but I really love it because this is my first time I am so eager to put a thing in a concept....

Bought together with the folded chair...Snowman USB Speaker.... I thought when I am alone in the bedroom, this lovely speaker will play my favourite songs nicely from my pendrive, handphone or external.... It's white and cute with a sparkling Snowman....

 My must visit store is KK Home Deco and SFF Home Mart... The flower above I saw at KK Home Deco but I think it's so obvious and it will turn my bedroom into a garden... Plus I don't think it's suitable for simple concept I'm trying to apply for my dream bedroom.

My bedroom size is so nice one... Neither too big nor too small. It's easier to decorate medium size bedroom compared to a big one... and the small finger sofa is used during my make up and touch up session.. because I am not yet having a dressing table match with my princess bedroom...  my dream dressing table must in white, princess look and solid wood.... I don't want a plain or simple one.

My bedroom from another angle... Look at the long stand mirror, I bought the mirror because of its unique design and it's rare I guess...  I think my bedroom is not complete yet.. I am thinking in how to make it more meaningful and have all of my significant values.

A close-up  for my mirror.... It's my temporary dressing mirror I guess. More to come to complete my dream bedroom in a constrain budget... Hahaha this is my temporary room actually and I just want to have a rough design for my 'in renovation permanent bedroom'... Chill out....

Next time visit to KK Home Deco, my heart is so warm when I saw the colourful roses and came in mind how nice if my bedroom also have a bunch of roses... There it goes. I brought back a huge bunch of roses. Really love it and its cost quite out of my bedroom budget.

Tadaa.... I consider these roses as a gift to myself... For the passion I have to decorate such a passionate bedroom.... Still a sigh concept... It's like hanging everywhere... Not exactly as what I want even I put my cool stuff here and there...

Later on, I bought 5 tier multi-purpose drawer to put all kind of no need to be seen stuffs. It helps me to hide my messy things. The finger sofa changes its position for hundredth time.. When you keep on adding new things in your room, you will find which is neccessary and unnecessary thing.